Neuropeptides, anyone want a fix?

From: "Let Your Goddess Grow!" by Charlene M. Proctor, PhD.

"As we work at living positively in the present moment, not in the past, our automatic programs can become problematic. We may have pattersn set in place that do not serve us well. Our response to some new stimulus in our environment, such as a person, a relationship, or an event, could be based upon old information. Reactions to old experiences, such as despair, low self-esteem, or even pleasure from eating can become ingrained as patterns in our brain because those emotions produce chemicals that give us a boost. Every emotion we feel circulates through our bodies as chemicals called neuropeptides. The neurobiologist Candice Pert suggests that these short-claim amino acids or proteins talk to every cell of our body through receptor sites, guiding our perception of our choices. When our receptor sites are repeatedly bombarded by the same neuropeptieds, they begin to crave them. In other words, our bodies become addicted to our emotional states, whether good or bad. If you are repeating the same relationship patters, for example, it means that your body has developed a chemical appetite for those experiences. Like an addict, you'll draw experiences toward you that give you a fix."

Amazing! So, as I pondered the above text, I had just this morning, reacted negatively and angrily to a technical fallout situation regarding my computer. I cussed, wanted to throw my fist through a wall, yelled at the computer as though it could hear me and change its attitude, but like a rebellious teen, it ignored me and did what I didn't want it to do anyway. (I realized I have to take the thing into the repair shop, not happy. Thankfully it's still under warranty, but the inconveienence of the matter was what ticked me off.) I realized by reading this, that I get off on being angry!

I do. Every nasty person in my life, I go home and tell them off in private, I get angry, throw my weight around (and I have a lot of weight to throw around, mind you), and I get off on it. I wouldn't dare do this to their faces, as I'm too 'nice' for that, but get me in the privacy of my own home and I go off. It never occurred to me that I 'choose' to do th is because I get addicted to the feeling it gives me. I choose to get angry because I'm addicted to getting angry. So... wow. Talk about a mind blowing insight. And... as a result I crave it so I seek out any and all means to put myself in that situation. Eeegawds, why would I even WANT to do that????

So, what do you get off on doing that's negative? Think about it carefully.  See that light bulb going off above your head? Helllllooooo, want to change the patterns?  Change the reactions. I'll post more later, but this was mind-blowing to me and I needed to share right away!
Hugs... in LIGHT and LOVE... (Because I choose to...)
Myristica